This seems so timely. Four years ago at Passion, Whitney and David and I went to a late night session of worship led by Matt Redman, and Nathan & Christy Knockles.
Christy sang a new hymn they had written called “Choose” and at the time, Whit LOVED this song. I even contacted her label, but as Watermark had stopped recording, they didn’t have any resources for me to obtain the chords or lyrics or anything.
Well, Christy has released a solo CD today, and this song is on it! It’s cool that this song is now out there. But I have some questions on it…
Let me be in love with what you love
Let me be most satisfied in you
Forsaking what this world has offered me
I choose to be in love with you
I will choose to be in love with you
In a later verse she sings
Let me know that have loved me first
and let me know the weight of my response
for you have long pursued my wandering heart
I choose to glory in your cross
If you know me at all, you know I am a Calvinist through and through, and hold to the biblical doctrines of reformed theology.
But the more I grow and walk out my faith each day, the more I realize something. God did choose me before the foundations of the earth, before time began. And this choosing had nothing to do with my worth or merit, nor did it happen because God could see into the future and knew that I would choose Him. He chose me based on nothing of myself or my decisions. I did not choose Him, not would I ever have chosen Him had He not first chosen me.
But. (I know. Bare with me.) But…each day, I feel as though I do choose whether or not to pick up my cross and deny myself. I feel like denying sin is a conscious choice I must make day in and day out. So in that regard, I feel as though we do choose to love Him, to forsake the things of this world in light of, or because of the fact that He first chose us.
Thoughts? Blasphemous? Do tell 🙂